It's been a difficult couple of days. Jeanne has had some above-the-norm cognitive challenges and of all of the symptoms that MS brings, the dulling of Jeanne's cognitive skills are the most difficult for me to deal with. I think it's because there's no physical clue that anything is "off." But spending just a few minutes talking with Jeanne made it clear that there was a change in how she was processing things...or not processing things.
During one of these "events", my mind tends to fill with a million questions. Will she be like this more often? Is this a preview of the next stage of progression? Questions for which there are no useful answers. Nor does it really matter. You can get into a lot of trouble attempting to predict the future. True in the stock market. Equally true in our house.
The good news is that today Jeanne is doing better. Less confusion. Lots more sleep. Between increased sleeping and losing her grasp of reality, you know which condition I'm voting for. And so I'm content to silence the questions and stay in the present with Jeanne. Because today is a better day.
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